Sorry for the gap in posting but I've been moping around all week thinking about my rubbish riding and our rubbish schooling session on Monday (and feeling guilty about losing my temper with Hattie then too!)
It started out good, Hattie was going around nicely forward and in an outline and I think I should have left it there after about 20 minutes as Hattie HATES schooling at the best of times. Instead since everything was going well, I thought "why not try working on our canter?".
We got a few shuffling strides on the right rein after multiple tries and none on the left rein.
My stupid saddle started rolling to the left AGAIN even though it had only been flocked up 2 days beforehand. Hattie started going around with her head up in the air, I was getting tired and frustrated....
So I gave up trying to canter and went back to working on our trot and practising our test.
Hattie was still going around with her head in the air, rushing the trots, not stopping so I lost my cool so yanked the rein (MY BAD!!!!!!!!) and shouted at her.
I felt like crying as we were doing so well last summer and now we suck. I feel like I'm battling the saddle and it's affecting my riding and Hattie is getting the brunt of it which is NOT COOL at all.
I feel so guilty about taking out my frustration on her as it's not Hattie's fault that I'm a rubbish rider and she is such a kind mare. She didn't ask to have some lump of a rider on her back and you should NEVER take out your anger on a horse. I feel like a very bad parent and feel VERY guilty. You guys have permission to shout at me and tell me off!!
Plus, the Side Saddle Association Area 12 email came through with the list of side saddle shows for 2011 and the one that we went in last year and won is on it and I probably won't be able to go to it again as I don't have transport and my riding has gone down the drain.
I don't know what to do about my saddle as it's comfy when it's flocked up and Hattie doesn't throw a buck with it like she did with my old one but I don't know if she truly likes it. Is it normal for it to need reflocking every 2 days???
I need lessons too as I need to sort out if it's me or the saddle (or both!) that is leading to such a block when it comes to riding.
Maybe just keep schooling to 20 minutes MAX and just go back to the beginning with riding and when it comes time to canter, just aim for a couple of strides and really concentrate on my position.
I put that foam grip stuff between my panels again as a temporary fix until I have the saddler come out again and to keep the saddle level for the dressage test on Sunday.
I don't know how we will do on Sunday but I promised Hattie that I would NEVER EVER take out my anger on her again like I did on Monday. She just looked at me when I said that and pushed me with her nose as if to say "go get me my food woman"....
Here are some blurry photos from a few weeks ago when we tried out the pelham. Hattie didn't mind it one bit but my off-side side saddle needed flocking up desperately on her so we only walked around.
It was tricky riding with two reins but after a while, it wasn't too bad. I didn't bother riding off the curb so kept that a little bit loose but kept the contact on the snaffle.